Friday, 3 June 2011
I have been out of town for a few days, and a combination of less access to a computer, and being away has meant that I haven't done a blog post for a week now. Maybe it is just me, but there is something about being in a country town that means that I get less done. Maybe it is just that when I am there it feels a bit like a holiday, but I actually feel less motivated to get things done straight away. There just feels like there is more time, and that if I don't get it done today, then I can still do it tomorrow. This should be a good thing, but it makes me feel a bit paralysed. I want to be more productive, and I just find it really difficult to get anything done. I sometimes think how lovely it would be to live in the country, and to have a less hectic time, but I am not sure that it would work in real life as a long term thing. Maybe if it was longer term I could focus and teach myself to get things done, but maybe not. Or maybe getting things done doesn't matter.
It was great to get away for a few days, I have been feeling a little suffocated by the routine of life, and getting on the road and away from reality (although I still had 3 children with me) was wonderful. It was wonderful to have a few days where the kids and I could just 'BE'. Life these days seems to be chock full of all the little naggy things that make life unpleasant, like school lunches, being at a certain place by a certain time, getting homework done. Although this life is occasionally punctuated by lovely days out, or other special and nice things, is this what life is meant to be like? It sometimes just feels like one big list of chores, rather than really 'living'. Or am I just doing it wrong?